Here is a revelation that I had this week. Knee-deep in the exposure of pre-marital counseling, an internship at my church, and much conversation with friends and family, I rose to the surface grasping this statement- that my man is a good man.
By this I mean, that though he does not always make me happy nor make the right decisions, he is making me his wife. He strives daily to follow the Lord. He loved me, and wants what is best for me. He is a gift from the always-good Giver. He is a good man.
In the all-too near future, I know there will be times that I will question this. I know there have been times when I already have. But, I hope that I will turn back to this and rediscover it in the midst of the mud and trials. I hope it will be what motivates me to stand strong by his side even when I do not feel like it. I hope that it will be what brings me hope I cannot see the light at the end of a hard and trying week.
There are a million things Zack does differently than me. He loves structure. I love spontaneity. He loves saving. I love spending. He is calculated and strategic. I am carless and carefree. He is responsible. I lose my keys, phone, and wallet a minimum of ten times a day. Though these differences manifest themselves in a variety of ways, one thing remains. That He loves Jesus, and I love him.
Many times, in the midst of a heated disagreement, my mind becomes clouded by my own perception. I think to myself, all he cares about is himself, or he hates me right now. He wants to make my life miserable. Thoughts like these begin to overtake reality. And, the promises that he makes to me on my wedding day will seem all but a whisper in the wind. However, it is this truth that I hope continues to draw me out. That in reality, he is made in the image of my Savior. He is being sanctified and made whole daily- and that I can either be a part of that, or be apart from that
My man is a sinner, and he will let me down. But, my man is also redeemed, and faultless before the throne. My man is so good- but the best thing is that my Father is better.